i'm falling.

Currently Listening The Very Best of Cat Stevens By Cat Stevens see related

I am taking a semester off to work, breathe for a while without the pressures of school, find myself.

I read updates from Emmaus Ministries (where I lived, worked and loved for 11 weeks summer 2007).  My heart aches for the men living on the streets in the midst of addiction, despair, heartache, homelessness, and so many other pressures that they must endure. 

IT ISN'T FAIR THAT I HAVE SO MUCH AND THEY HAVE SO LITTLE!!!

it isn't fair that i am not ready to change...

all i want to do is cry.
I'm not sure if my tears are for them or for me.

Why am I so damn selfish?!

Currently Listening Begin to Hope By Regina Spektor see related

THE SOLITARY REAPER

by: William Wordsworth (1770-1850)

EHOLD her, single in the field,

Yon solitary Highland Lass!

Reaping and singing by herself;

Stop here, or gently pass!

Alone she cuts and binds the grain,

And sings a melancholy strain;

O listen! for the Vale profound

Is overflowing with the sound.

 

No Nightingale did ever chaunt

More welcome notes to weary bands

Of travellers in some shady haunt,

Among Arabian sands:

A voice so shrilling ne'er was heard

In spring-time from the Cuckoo-bird,

Breaking the silence of the seas

Among the farthest Hebrides.

 

Will no one tell me what she sings?--

Perhaps the plaintive numbers flow

For old, unhappy, far-off things,

And battles long ago:

Or is it some more humble lay,

Familiar matter of to-day?

Some natural sorrow, loss, or pain,

That has been, and may be again?

 

Whate'er the theme, the Maiden sang

As if her song could have no ending;

I saw her singing at her work,

And o'er the sickle bending;--

I listen'd, motionless and still;

And, as I mounted up the hill,

The music in my heart I bore,

Long after it was heard no more.

60 honest answers.

1.  Where is the last place you held hands?
don't even know.

2.  If you were drafted into a war, would you survive?
probably.  I like to think that i am a pretty tough cookie.

3.  Do you sleep with the TV on?
only if it is on when i fall asleep.  and then i usually wake up and turn it off.

4.  Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
unfortunatly, yes i have.

5.  Have you ever won a spelling bee?
no.

6.  What is your longest fight with one of your friends?
11 months

7.  Are you a fast typer?
nope.

8.  Are you afraid of the dark?
sometimes.

9.  Do you like someone right now?
it is quite possible.

10.  What ended your last relationship?
i've never had a relationship to end.

12.  Do you knock on wood?
all the time!

13.  Are you drinking anything right now?
aqua.

14.  Do you think you’re smart?
most of the time.

15.  Have you ever eaten a bug?
when i was little i used to eat worms.  does that count?

16.  Do you miss someone right now?
very much.

17.  What do you want for Christmas?
to be grown up and out of school.

18.  Do you know the muffin man?
sounds familiar...

19.  Do you talk in your sleep?
no.

20.  Do you remember your 1st crush?
yep.

21.  Have you ever flown a kite?
nope.

22.  When was the last time that you went swimming and where?
oh gosh.  i don't really swim bc I don't know how,  but i waded in an e-coli infested lake michigan last summer.  that should count for something.
23.  Do you consider yourself successful?
yes.

24.  How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone?
oh man...too many to remember.

25.  Have you ever asked for a horse?
a lot.

26.  Plans for TOMORROW?
kandi's bachelorette party!

27.  What did you do this past weekend?
rode in a car for nine hours. fun, right?

28. Miss being at school right now?
not much to miss.  i'm at school right now...


29.  When’s the last time you told someone you loved them?
5 minutes ago.

30.  Do you want to be single?
not forever.  but i think i am finally learning to be happy with it right now.

32.  Who’s your hero?
my mommy.

33.  Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
no.

34.  What are you looking forward to?
losing my next 10 pounds.  i am laready down 15!

35.  If you could be stranded with one person for 24 hours, who would it be?
i'm not entirely sure...

37.  Have you ever eaten dog food?
yes.

38.  Can you handle the truth?
yes.  but can you?

39.  Do you like green eggs and ham?
i do not like them, sam i am.

40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?.
cell phone, ink pen, earrings.

41.  Any cool scars?
i have one on my upper lip from a pop can.

42.  Are you missing in action?
only on weeks overloaded with papers and exams.

44.  What’s your deepest secret?
wouldn't you like to know...

45.  How often do you talk on the phone?
every day.

46.  Do you believe in love?
yes.
"I believe in a thing called love
Just listen to the rhythm of my heart"  -the darkness

47.  Is there something you want that you can’t have?
yeah.

48.  Four things about the preferred sex that you first notice?
hair. clothes. posture. voice.

49.  When was your last time you cried?
yesterday.

50.  Who did you last hug?
laura boyd.

51.  Do you get along with your family?
yes.  i adore them.

52.Where is your phone?
three inches from my hand.  not kidding.

53.  What was the last thing you ate?
nutella.

54.  Favorite color?
blood red.  but i promise i am not morbid!

55.  Last movie you saw?
august rush.

56.  What song are you listening to?
i am sitting in silence...

57.  What do you want?
to take a nap.

58.  Favorite car?
anything that gets good gas milage and is environmentally friendly.


59. What T.V. show did you last watch?
what not to wear

60.  Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
momma.

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